my eyes mist, my heart swells, yet contract at the same time as i read and reread his latest blog entry. he's the same as always, although so different from before. down to earth yet full of bravado. arrogant, yet he makes it seem reasonable, and yes, he can make you believe that it's required. that it's simply part of him, and it is.

he's right beside me. but he's still light years away.

this is what a jumbled post is. but isn't jumbled up how we all feel when we experience that heady rush of that thing we call love.